Suicide Hotline PSA Script

Written, Directed and Produced by Nana Ramsey

Have you ever felt that life is worthless? That everything is just going wrong? You’re depressed, you’re restless, you feel like you’re constantly falling into a black pit and you just want it to end. I know what it’s like. But there’s hope out there. You can call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or text The Crisis Hotline at 741741 if you don‘t want to talk. There’s someone out there to listen to you, and no, you’re not alone. Again, call 1-800-273-8255 or text 741741.

P!nk’s “Perfect” (instramental only) playing in the background

To listen to the PSA, click HERE.


Teen Has Right to Refuse Treatment

The story of “Cassandra C.” hit the national spotlight in January, occupying mainstream news and blowing up social media.

Cassandra, a 17-year-old girl with Hodgkin’s lymphoma, was being forced to undergo chemotherapy by the State of Connecticut.

Chemo and radiation can give patients like her up to an 85 percent chance of survival. Sounds like good odds to most people. To Cassandra, the idea is dreadful.

She underwent two chemo treatments and wanted to stop. The pain, discomfort and other side effects were enough to make her want no more.

Cassandra failed to return to the hospital, which called Connecticut’s Department of Children and Families.

The state stripped her mother, Jackie Fortin, who has supported her wishes, of custodial rights due to “medical neglect.” Then it ordered Cassandra to resume chemo.

What? How can the government make such a decision for a human being?

Fortin and Cassandra’s lawyer, Josh Michtom, asked the courts to designate Cassandra as a “mature minor,” giving her control over her own medical decisions.

Here’s how the mature minor doctrine is presented by the informational website

“(It is) a relatively new legal concept, and as of 2002, only a few states, such as Arkansas and Nevada, have enacted the doctrine into statute. In several other states, including Pennsylvania, Tennessee, Illinois, Maine and Massachusetts, state high courts have adopted the doctrine as law.”

In a Jan. 8 hearing, the Connecticut Supreme Court ruled against Cassandra and upheld the state’s order that she must submit to chemo.

According to the American Medical Association website, this is AMA Policy on Provision of Life-Sustaining Medical Treatment:

“Patients have a right to participate in decisions about their medical care. This fundamental principle of medical ethics holds true for all types of medical treatments.  Patients can refuse treatments, even when such refusal is likely to result in death.”

The hospital, courts and Connecticut Department of Children and Families shouldn’t ignore this policy or the ethical reasoning behind it.  The AMA doesn’t like the idea of physician-assisted suicide, but it supports a person’s ability to refuse treatment and choose natural death.

Opinions on Cassandra’s situation range from empathetic to patronizing. One in particular was expressed by a nurse, Joann Carlson, in a Letter to the editor section of the Hartford Courant:

“At her tender age, Cassandra has not the knowledge nor the emotional maturity to realize what a gift life is,” Carlson wrote.

Cassandra is only eight months shy of 18. Carlson would never have said anything like this had an “adult” made the same decision.

Much of the media coverage on Cassandra’s case has implied that the teenager wanted to die rather than undergo chemo. That isn’t true. She and her mother were pursuing alternative treatments when the state intervened.

“What is the difference between the ages of 17 and 18?” has been a common question asked on social media.

The answer? Twelve months. That’s it. At 17, you can graduate from high school, enroll in college, live on your own and get married.

Cassandra really isn’t that different from Brittany Maynard, a 30-year-old California woman with terminal brain cancer.

Maynard chose to die before her disease killed her and moved to Washington, one of five states where physician-assisted suicide is legal.

Her case also was controversial. Some people celebrated her bravery while others called her a “coward.” All she sought was an end to the pain and death with dignity.

Cassandra wants nothing more than to make the same choice for herself. She has at least two years to change her mind before the Hodgkin’s would kill her.

She just wants to determine her own quality of life. One of the few quotes we have seen in the media from Cassandra expresses just that:

“Whether I live 17 years or 100 years should not be anyone’s choice but mine. How long is a person actually supposed to live, and why? Who determines that? I care about the quality of my life, not just the quantity.”

Cassandra will turn 18 in September.  What will stop her from ceasing chemo then if she hasn’t already finished her treatment?

Her feelings are not going to change overnight. If anything, they’re going to be strengthened, as her wishes are not being respected.

This column was a winner at the Missouri College Media Association in 2016 in the Columns category.

““Fifty Shades” Makes Abuse Seem OK”

The book “50 Shades of Grey” by E.L. James has too many fans, and it doesn’t make sense.

It romanticizes rape like it’s an OK part of a relationship. It makes emotional, physical and sexual abuse look attractive. It’s a horrible depiction of BDSM, which many people don’t understand.

The acronym is composed of three parts: Bondage and discipline (BD), dominance and submission (Ds) and sadism and masochism (SM).

Someone who identifies as BDSM is at least into one of these things, but not necessarily all.

There are many rules with BDSM. One is that sex is always consensual. In “50 Shades of Grey,” this is not the case.

In one scene, Ana is passed out drunk and Grey has sex with her. He turns up at her apartment uninvited later and makes a sexual advance. She tells him “No,” but he forces himself on her and even makes threats while raping her.

There is a secret in BDSM culture that many outsiders do not know. The “dominate” is not the one with all the power and control; it is actually the “submissive.” Turns out the Ds relationship is a fickle thing. It also takes years of building trust to work.

James slapped together something that sounded good in her head and called it what it what she wanted.

Then there were the few BD scenes in “50 Shade of Grey,” which weren’t too bad, until you got to the abuse. In theory, BD isn’t even about sex, though it does often lead to it with couples who are practicing.


Toward the end of the book, Grey beats Ana with a belt because she’s not really into being “punished.” He hits her six times, and he keeps going as she cries.

Never does Grey stop to ask if Ana is OK, like a dominate would upon hearing his partner cry. Especially if it was the first time he enforced pain in a session.

BD really is about the sensuality of restraint and trusting your partner to stop when a safe word is used. Grey fails at this.

Grey gives Ana a safe word, but she becomes so conditioned to accept abuse that she doesn’t use it. He punishes her for that, too.

It’s also bothersome that Ana starts the relationship as a virgin, so her first sexual encounters are abusive. She tries to escape, only to be roughed up some more.

Yeah, that’s really hot, ladies.

Grey takes full advantage of the fact that Ana is unaware of what she’s getting herself into, and that is unacceptable as well. It was manipulation on his part.

James openly admitted that “50 Shades of Grey” is a piece of fan fiction based on the “Twilight” characters Edward and Bella. It’s strange and twisted that it became a book.

James’ writing is so extreme and fanciful that it shows she did zero research. For example, it is unrealistic that Ana and Kate can afford living the way they do as college students.

The whole book was just a bad idea. On “The Today Show,” Dr. Drew Pinsky, a celebrity sex therapist, said the book was “horribly written” and “disturbing.”

Not only is the concept disturbing, the fact that James, and many other women, find it “hot” and want this kind of “relationship” is insane.

There weren’t “50 Shades of Grey,” there was one: An abusive man who had no idea what he wanted. This book has no depth. It’s just a rape fantasy that sold millions of copies.

Then came the movie, released on Valentine’s Day. The only way it was going to get an R-rating was if producers took out all the rape and abuse, which they did.

If the movie truly correlated with the book, it would have gotten the killer NC-17 rating and never survived the box office. It differs from the book so much that it is unrecognizable.

Conclusion: The movie “50 Shades of Grey” is probably worth more because it took out everything that was wrong with the book.

This column was a winner of the Missouri College Media Association Awards in 2016 in the Entertainment Reviews category.

Gamer’s PSA Script

Written and Directed
By Nana N Ramsey

Open up on Player 2 in obfuscate
Player 1 walks in and does an “Auspex” check
P1 – Auspex check
Both players do Rock/Paper/Scissors and tie
P2 – You win
P1 – I’m only using Dot 2 Auspex. I need to bid as the agressor. That’s how ties work, right?
P2 – I’m using Dot 1 Obfuscate so you win
P1 – But don’t you need Dot 2 to hide yourself like that?
P2 – Dot 1 is hiding while not moving
Enter ST
ST – What’s the problem guys?
P1 – I don’t think they’re using Dot 1 Obfuscate correctly
ST pulls out phone and starts checking
P2 – What do you know? Dot 1 has and always will be hiding without moving
ST – Ah, here it is. Dot 1 Obfuscate, Conceal. A person can hide an item on their persons. I think they’re right abut this.
P2 – What? Let me see that…
P2 takes STs phone
P2 – I still don’t agree
P2 walks out
Fade to black and open on the single shot of the ST
ST – Don’t be a rules lawyer. Contact your local Storyteller for more.

To watch the video, click HERE.

Underground Productions: One Man’s Journey

An aquarium, a guinea pig, in a house open to stray cats and home to two dogs and three chickens, and is the home to John Specht, 52, and his wife Katrina.

To say their home is a zoo would be an understatement and Specht’s office is the busiest of all as the social point of the home.

The only hair Specht has is facial hair streaked with grey. Tall and broad in stature, people can’t see the 50 lbs of weight loss he’s achieved but they can see the scars that go up his left arm and leg.

Specht has lived most of his adult life in Jefferson County, Missouri. He spends much of his time now gardening, walking his two dogs, Zoey and Bella, and working on different projects.

Specht studied film and art at St. Louis Community College at the Meramec campus on and off from 1992 to 1998.

While putting himself through school, Specht would work four jobs as the overnight sales clerk in different adult entertainment stores.

“I met so many interesting people while working in those stores,” he said.

In 1994, one would become a long time friend and eventually a partner, Mike “Pony” Tomich.

Specht’s career began in 1995 when he met Jeff Atwater, who would become his first partner, in a film class at Meramec. Sadly, it would be in 2004 when they would go their separate ways.

“It was my fault. I was in a dark place at the time and such a hard ass,” Specht would say.

It was also during this time that he met his wife, Katrina Ramsey, who’s taken his name, and her son, John Moore, in 1996. He would also come to meet what he calls his extended family.

After finishing school with a degree, Specht and Atwater would go on to create the underground production company Bullet Pen Productions before renaming the company Royalty-N-Exile.

One of his favorite creations that helped brand his company was Noria, a character from the Foreshadow graphic novels. Todd Terrill and Mike Boeckelmann had helped Specht get the comic off the ground with their own production company, The Avenging Heifer making an amazing co-op and opening doors, small as they may be, for the three friends.


One of the sketches of Noria done by Mike Boeckelmann

Specht, Atwater, and Tomich would work on multiple projects with the help of his newfound extended family, Ramsey and Moore.

Specht has produced multiple films. The most successful of which was a documentary, Radio Free St. Louis: This is Chuck Norman (2003).

Documentaries weren’t his specialized genre though, horror was his bread and butter.

One film in particular, Electric Zombies (2006) received poor reviews. Chad Crawford made a review on IMdB, writing, “I don’t want anyone to think, ‘Hey, this sounds so bad it might be fun, let’s rent it.’ I promise you it’s not even worth that.”

Ramsey, married Specht in 2000. She was supportive of his filming, often starring in his works and creating props and special effects.

Working endlessly for almost a decade, Atwater had had enough.

“It was like working for a slave driver at times. Sometimes nobody wanted to do anything because we weren’t cooperating,” Atwater said.

When Specht had a heart attack in 2004, everything changed for him. “It was a blessing in disguise, really,” he said.

Sadly, Specht would go on to have multiple heart surgeries, another heart attack, and will have to have lifetime heart-monitoring by doctors.

In 2004, he would have to have stints put in following his heart attack. Later, in 2008, he had to have an internal defibrillator and pacemaker put in after his second heart attack.

Specht’s internal defibrillator would go off in the middle of the night in 2012, electrocuting his wife, with minimal injuries to her, but causing him to have another surgery to have his internal defibrillator replaced and to have a quadruple bypass, causing the scarring that‘s now visible on his left arm and leg.


John Specht, 52, showing off his latest achievements in the garden, Strawberry Popcorn

Specht’s family life has been rocky at best. With the exception of his extended family, few people actually came to see him during his hospitals stays, with the exception of his last one. During the last hospital stay, as it was the longest, he was often scolded by hospital staff for having too many visitors.

His family life has become stable since then. He has three living older sisters, Jackie, Patty and Sharon, a niece and three nephews. Specht talks to his sisters often and their relationships are good. Patty lives in North Carolina, with his niece and his other two sisters live in St. Louis.

Specht’s relationship with his stepson, Moore, was a close one while Moore was growing up but things have changed. Moore says that since he moved on to strike out on his own, that they had drifted apart. “(It’s) not all me though,” Moore said, “ it takes two to have a close relationship.”

When asked about working with Specht on sets as a kid Moore said;

“A lot of my childhood was spent on weekends working when I just wanted to be with my friends. Of course I thought it was neat and I did try it before I knocked it but it just wasn’t for me.”

A young John Moore in a video produced by John Specht. (Click link if video won’t load)

The Spechts participate in a catch and release program for stray cats. They catch the cats, get them fixed and the ear is clipped to mark that this stray has been fixed and they bring them back.

Some of their strays have disappeared, having found homes with their neighbors.

They also care for most of the strays that hang around their home, feeding them and leaving an opening in their garage with a cat door to the house.

Specht, now retired from film making, continues to work on his original passion, drawing. He is currently working on a new project with Boeckelmann and Terrill. Slaying the Beast, a story of cancer and hope. Having pulled real experiences as ideas and muses, it has started coming together.

Specht is happy to be back to his roots and doing art again and is loving working with new programs, such as Adobe Imaging and Photoshop, that weren’t available 20 years ago.